That feeling of too many things to do and not enough time? Does it sound familiar? Overwhelmed is what we call it.
OK, so I have a bit of a dilemma. It’s pretty long but I will try my utmost best to keep it as short as possible. Firstly, I just want to say thankyou to everyone who is taking the time to read this and give me some help or a little bit of light. Even if it is a few short words in your answer, I am so grateful as nobody else seems to be able to help…
My boyfriend and I have been together almost a year, and recently (I mean in the past month or so) he has been acting quite different;
-All of a sudden has not much time for me anymore. When I asked him about this, he said he has things to do, and gave me reasons which generally because ‘he wants to go home after work to do things he likes doing’, and none of those things included me. But the other stuff, like preparing for next day’s work etc, never used to affect the relationship before?! He also gave the lame excuse of not being able to sleep properly as a reason for not staying at mine any more
-I found a txt on his phone where he called a girl ‘baby’
-Still hasn’t met my family
-I’m spending Christmas with him and his family this year. When I asked him if he could meet my family he said to stop pressuring him. I said that I want to at least feel part of the family to an extent at Christmas, as I have always spent Christmas with my family so don’t want to feel left out this time round. He said
“Yeah but you’re not coming to spend time with my family. You’re coming to be with me, and if my family’s there, great, if there not, well then whatever, you won’t get to see them. It’s not like it matters. They’re just happy that they’re gonna see me”
-I know that sex gets less frequent as a relationship goes on in time, but we are hardly ever passionate now. And when we are, it’s like he can’t even look at me. And it’s good, but all over so quickly, and then we just go sleep.
-Whilst speaking to friends of his in the past, they have said to him ‘you should marry this girl’ (sorry I really don’t want it to seem like I’m being big headed coz im not ) and my bf’s been like ‘yeah, we are married LOL’ or something like that. But the other night I was talking to one of his mates and they said that to my bf and my bf said ‘I was once about to…’ then just walked off.. it was like there should have been a ‘but’ on the end of his reply,.
-Sends me nice txts like ‘you’re so hot’ and ‘I love you so much, i feel so close to you’ err… B*^^%$t!!, but is horrible to me in person
-Sometimes when we’re in public and I try to put my arm around him to hug him, he either elbows me away or pushes my arm away.
-When i try to kiss him in public, he keeps his lips tightly closed, sometimes.
-I do everything for him- buy him new clothes, print stuff off for him at work, meet him somewhere after work so he can borrow my travel card, buy him drinks and dinner all the time (especially when he was unemployed, until recently when he got full time job) and even though he now has money, he has only bought me about 4 drinks in past month, and not taken me out to dinner ONCE.
-Denies stupid things. like other night i got a call from him after a txt at 21:30, when called him back he said he didnt call or txt, he said he ‘didnt touch his phone’
. then an hour after talking to him he said i checked my phone yeah i did call, but it was at 20:30 and txt was at 20:30 also. …. how on earth would my phone receive a missed call saying 21:30 if it was received an hour earlier…. I confronted him asking why he said that he didnt even ‘touch his phone’ and he got really angry and said ‘I never said that. Stop changing my words’
The list does go on, of course, but they are the most re-occurring and major things, and I don’t want you to get any more bored!
I just want to know why he’s suddenly acting like this. I don’t want people to just say ‘leave him, dump him’ etc, coz that is easier said than done and I want to know what on earth is going on and sort it out, not just runaway from this problem, because I know it sounds mad, but I still love him so much and it is breaking my heart.
Thanks So much for reading and for any advice/opinion/judgement you may be able to give
I’m not interested by the interested. I am interested by the interesting. People say I’m a bastard and full of crap, dumb, and worthless. Seriously looking at them I think it’s the other way around. They talk a whole bunch of crap, acting like they can actually do something to someone, when really all they can is talk but never take action. They are the stupid ones. Me, well I’m the opposite if I have something to say about you, ill say it to your face. And if you do something about it, you won’t see a tomorrow. I don’t give people a lot of chances in my life once you mess yup your screwed. I have given people a lot of chances in my life and they keep backstabbing me. Once you mess yup in my life or backstab me, don’t talk to me, hang around me or even look at me, because I keep it real. I don’t care if its mean it is what it is.
October 1st Clinic
“Erin wake up!” Snooki shouted, pulling my coat. “Ya I’m awake.” I said opening my eyelid. I call her Snooki because she looks like a little dwarf who escaped from Willy Wonka’s chocolate factory. She’s like a little oompa loompa. Although she’s skinny, she’s anorexic. That’s why she’s in the clinic. She’s 12 and only weights 50 pounds. I’m not sure why she stopped eating maybe it’s because she felt insecure of her height and the way she looked. She even tried to committed suicide. She claims she lives for me. So I will never let her go.
“Cookie, stop sleeping you said you’d help me with my homework you jerk.” She said throwing a pencil at me. I nodded and helped her with her math homework. After 10 minutes we were done with multiplying fractions. I packed my belongings into my book bag.
“Wait so you’re just going to leave me?” She said crying. “Uh ya I have to go dwarf, got to pick up my girlfriend.” I said wiping her eyes. She squint her eyes viciously at me. “No sleep with me now! Your girlfriend probably cheats on you, so sleep with me.” She said in a raspy voice, while pulling the tail of my bag. I picked her up and laid her onto the bed. “Ok Dwarf don’t judge people you hear?” I said lying on top of her. She nodded her head in approval. “But, but listen yup Cookie you screw girlfriend so why can’t you screw me?” She said kicking me of the bed. And yet she calls me the jerk? That’s typical Dwarf. I got up from the floor and threw the blanket on top of her laughing and ran out the room.
I walked from the clinic towards the school, had to go pick up my girlfriend. I have two friends in the clinic, Amy and Kitty. Amy has Leukemia, she had it for 6 years she’s only 10. I feel real bad for her. Her dad left her mom once she got pregnant. Her mom was overwhelmed so she stated smoking and drinking everyday. Amy was pretty much neglected. Then one day when Amy got back from school her mom was lying on the floor dead. She was alcohol poisoned and was taking DMT witch is a drug, and very powerful it’s found in several plants, and slows down heart pressure. I know because I’ve tried it once when I was 9 I had to stay in the hospital for three months. I will never ever do it again. Well the only drugs I do now is crystal meth, heroin, I drink, I smoke, I overdosed on all of this a lot of times. For example once I was snorting some cocaine, drinking alcohol, and inhaling a can of booze. Oh that was amazing.
I grew closer to the school, from a distance I saw someone jumping and waving their hands in the air. I don’t know if she’s trying praise the lord like that special ED boy did a few weeks ago. Lisa ran to me and tackled me down on the pavement. She giggled and kissed me. I rolled her over lying on top of her. We quickly fell in a deep kiss. “Where were you?” She said breaking the kiss. “At the clinic of course.” I said softly pushing her off. “So why weren’t you answering my text?” She asked crossing her hands. What the hell is wrong with this girl? See this is what I hate about girls their uptight and moody. From one minute their all happy then the next, they go on accusing you of something. That’s why I’ bisexual, well not really. Back in 6th grade Maxxie kissed me by accident. Then he kissed me again, and then it got real personal. If you know what I mean… wink…wink.
“My god Lisa I was at the clinic get that through your head. I thought I told you I don’t like stupid people.” I said pulling her cheek. “Oh so now I’ stupid right you are so, uh I hate you.” She said walking near the bus stop. “The hell with you Lisa!” I shouted at her. “You know what Erin I hate you, your stupid, mean, cruel, and have no life.” She said with tears coming out her eyes. This girl is so damn desperate. “You are the one over here overreaction like some plastic Barbie.” I said. “Oh now I’m fake right? Well your stupid that’s why everyone hates you!” She yelled. I threw my book bag down and slapped her across the face. She began to cry
Okay I know somewhat of what a Procrastinator is and which Kind I am. I am the relaxed Procrastinator; meaning I don’t worry about my school stuff because I don’t care much for it. I don’t know where it just turned off in my head, I think its with the fact that I have been thinking about life and death and what humans are really meant to do in this world god or other religious figures have made.
Another reason could be with my Prefontal Cortex. I use to be able to process information with out taking notes in class or not alot of notes. Now I can’t preform this skill so well. I use to see things peice by peice and do them little by little if it were a long project. I also would be able to takle some of the most difficult science questions or even chemistry questions; but now I have a have understanding of what Im learing in my Physics class, which is an honors. This goes for my other honors class which is American History Honors; Which I beleive is a bit more difficult than World History Honors and plus American History does not catch most of my interest.
The final thing I know is that I am an internet addict and I go on myspace alot. I use to have a penpal and we’d talked through email and she told me about talking to people on myspace, I created another profile and talked and added and etc etc. I’ve made 3 profiles that I talk to people on. One, which is my fouth is my original which I only have friends in my area. I don’t know why but going on these myspaces free my mind, its like a place where I can freely write my opinions and stuff. That is why Im probly attached to it. And/Or Im attach to the people I’ve talked with.
So yea, help please, I’d like a Professional or someone thats serious to answer please.
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